On pregnancy cravings, how I'm REALLY feeling and the age old boy vs. girl

For the first few weeks of this pregnancy I had a hate/hate relationship with food. I hated the thought of food and if I managed to get anything down, it didn't stay down for long.

I hated that I hated food. Let's be real, I am not a dainty eater. I like 3 square meals a day, plus 2-3 snacks and of course something sweet after every meal (or whenever). I just wanted to WANT to eat again, and to actually be able to do it.

Fast forward a few weeks and well, I've gotten my wish. Let's hope chasing after the boys will help keep my weight in check because eating an entire box of Swiss Cake Rolls in a week (true story!) doesn't fair well for my waistline, pregnant or not.

When I was pregnant with Ethan, I craved Outback Steakhouse (good thing we both worked full-time), Wendy's frosty's and Sour Patch Kids. With Aiden it was fruit and Sour Patch Kids. This time around, now that I have my appetite back, it literally changes daily. There has not been one thing that I'm stuck on, rather on a moment's notice I will have a craving so strong that I must fulfill it immediately, then the next day don't want a thing to do with it.

12 weeks

To name a few: Chuy's jalapeno ranch dip, fresh cheese and crackers, Sweet Tarts, Starburst Jelly Beans, cheese and peanut butter crackers (the bright orange ones that come 6 to a package), anything with bacon, Cinnamon Toast Crunch, lemonade. All very random and not particularly healthy I know. But I shall pull the pregnancy card as this is the last time I will be able to do so :)

As for how I'm feeling...

I try not to complain often because I do not want to come across as ungrateful or just plain whiny, but I've had so many people ask so I am going to share. At just 13 weeks I feel as if I'm in my last trimester. Not. Kidding. I have this horrible pubic bone pain that has something to do with the bones *down yonder* relaxing to prepare for childbirth, but um, body, did you not get the memo that I have 27 more weeks?!?! My back hurts constantly. My head pounds with each step I take. And I find myself NEEDING a nap at least 2 or 3 times a day (problem being I have 2 kids so this is impossible). Okay there's all the whining you're going to get from me. This too shall pass, right? Or will it? I'm pretty sure that these pregnancy symptoms will parallel how I'll feel being sleep deprived with 3 kids. Well, minus the pubic pain...

Finally, let's talk about the "big question". You know, on whether we want a boy or a girl? At the risk of sounding completely cliche, I'm going to give it to you straight, we just want this baby to be healthy. Honestly. Some might think with two boys that I'm pulling for a little pink but that's just not the case. Not saying I wouldn't LOVE to have a girl and experience a whole new realm of parenthood - that would be wonderful. But if this baby is a boy you won't find me crying on the ultrasound table. Unless of course they are tears of joy that this baby is 100% healthy from the outside looking in.

I'll give everyone a little teaser though...I was totally feeling "girl" but told my husband several times that I just feel like we'll be hearing "It's a boy" during the big reveal at the doctor's office. When we were at our 12 week appointment with the high risk doctor, they took a peek. From what I saw, I was convinced it was a boy. The sonographer was too. But then the doctor did another one and said "I'm not so sure about that". At 12 weeks, it's still a little early to make heads or tails of it (er, um, penises/vaginas?) so we won't know for sure until our next scan at 16 weeks. We'll be getting a 3D ultrasound so as long as baby cooperates we should know in 3 weeks!

Anyone want to take a guess????